About chocolate

Chocolate seems to be right up there with cookies. That hockey fundraising chocolate in my fridge has been calling my name and I listened. I ate four bars this past Wednesday. I'm so weak. Though after having spoken with my mom on the phone yesterday I feel a little less guilty about it. We are, after all, only human.

It's been a pretty uneventful week, chocolate gorging aside, with no exciting new meals to talk about and no real fluctuations in weight. Have another kid birthday coming up in two weeks which means more cake. Maybe this time I'll manage to not eat too much.... yeah right ;)

The weekly weight recap:

September 21      138.0 lbs Celebration meal: Rotisserie chicken, fries, BBQ sauce. Chocolate bar.
September 22      139.8 lbs 
September 23      138.6 lbs
September 24      137.6 lbs Whole wheat pasta meal. 
September 25      137.6 lbs 3 chocolate bars *shame*
September 26      138.6 lbs Protein Thursday
September 27      137.6 lbs

Surviving cake and chocolate temptations

This week has been absolutely terrible for cravings. There has also been more yummies than normal around.

We had the birthday party for my son on Saturday, Made a huge Lego block shaped cake, tons of icing and filled with vanilla paste. We had gone out for breakfast in the morning and I used that as my celebration meal. Bacon, eggs, home fries, pancakes and toast. So much sodium and fat in that breakfast alone to last me months.... but it was delicious nonetheless. Had the birthday cake for dessert. It wasn't attached to the meal itself this time, for logistics reasons, but was eaten in the afternoon. I may or may not have had two pieces...

The day after the party, with all the cake leftovers in the fridge, was a true test of willpower. I ended up caving in and taking out a piece in the evening though after eating two spoonfuls I decided it's not worth it and stuck it in the trash instead.

There was also chocolate temptations aplenty. My son is selling chocolate to raise funds for his hockey team. Three boxes with a total of sixty bars. As parents we are expected to buy some, obviously, luckily for me half the box had bars containing almonds (which I am allergic to) so I ended up buying half a box to be supportive. There are now 15... strike that.. 14 bars of chocolate in my fridge. I had a weak moment and devoured a caramel chocolate bar. It's hard resisting the temptation to eat more. This is pretty nice quality chocolate... and I'm a chocoholic. It also doesn't help that I'm the only one in the house who actually likes chocolate.

I should probably also confess, now that I'm confessing all my sugary sins, that I haven't bothered to take a walk in the past two months.  /ashamed

Here's a recap of my weight for the week:

September 14     138.9 lbs (Celebration meal and cake)
September 15     138.8 lbs (cake slip up)
September 16     139.2 lbs
September 17     138.8 lbs (Whole wheat pasta meal)
September 18     137.6 lbs (chocolate incident)
September 19     138.2 lbs (Protein Thursday)
September 20     137.0 lbs

Consolidating away

I'm past the cookie incident now. Decided to stop beating myself up about it and just move on and stick with the consolidation rules.

Tomorrow is my sons birthday and we are going out for breakfast. He likes to have fancy French toast for his birthday. I'll make this my celebration meal of the week. I'm very excited about the prospect of eating bacon for the first time since March... and pancakes. There will, of course, be cake as well but in the afternoon so yeah maybe a little rule bender on the dessert being together with the meal but it's a birthday so I think an exception can be justified.

This week in food has been fairly uneventful. I haven't made anything super fancy meal wise. Just same old same old. I looked at a bunch of the recipes in the Dukan book but nothing really jumps out at me. They all look so pretentious and fancy. I'm not a food hipster that drizzles a light balsamic vinaigrette on my meals and eats with my pinky sticking out.. ya know? I'm more of a meat and potatoes kind of person though the potatoes are, naturally, out of the picture for right now.

I saw my brother in law this week for the first time since I started the diet. So in essence he saw the entire 46 pounds being gone right at once and not gradually like other people. His reaction was a HUGE boost to the self esteem. He said I look fantastic and that it was amazing that I had such discipline and was able to lose it in such a short period of time.

Here's a recap of my weight for the week, I did have one square of dark chocolate each day:

September 7    137.6 lbs  (Celebration meal. Cheeseburger/fries. Ice cream sandwich.)
September 8    139.0 lbs
September 9    138.4 lbs
September 10  138.0 lbs (Starchy meal. Whole wheat pasta)
September 11  138.6 lbs
September 12  138.4 lbs (Protein Thursday)
September 13  136.6 lbs

Cookies

This past week I went on a cookie bender. I made the mistake of thinking I could have just one when clearly I can't.. since cookies were the number one reason I had gained all that weight in the first place.

I had baked these oatmeal-cinnamon cookies for the kids and it smelled so incredibly delicious I decided I should have some for my CM dessert. This was a mistake. I can't have just one. Cookies are like my heroin. I kept coming back for more hits over the next few days until they were all gone. Now that there are no more cookies my craving is gone so the best thing, I think, is probably to stop making cookies or make banana flavoured ones (I'm allergic to bananas) so that I wont eat them. It's not like I'm completely lacking self control. I went on this diet successfully and that takes an enormous amount of self control and discipline... it's just... cookies... *sigh*

Cookie bender in mind I have not gained any weight this week. In fact I lost a little more from last Fridays weigh in. My husband is concerned that I'll lose too much and become a walking skeleton. I am not too concerned just yet. I think it's more of a momentum thing. I was losing weight at such super huge pace/rate that it takes a while to slow down

Here's my weight recap for the past week:

August 31        138.6 lbs
September 1    138.6 lbs (CM. Cheeseburger, fries, cookies, ice cream sandwich)
September 2    138.6 lbs  (5 cookies)
September 3    139.8 lbs  (5 cookies)
September 4    138.0 lbs  (Whole wheat pasta)
September 5    138.2 lbs  (Protein Thursday)
September 6    136.4 lbs

I'd like to specify that the last day of the week listed where you will normally see a big drop in weight is mostly water weight lost. The protein only day that comes prior is great for getting rid of excess water.