Not the whole roast

I made a roast yesterday and would probably have eaten it all if I hadn't stopped myself. Roast is my very favourite kind of meat. It's nice and browned and spice rubbed on the outside and tender and juicy on the inside. During the cruise phase I did eat a whole roast on one of my protein days but it did feel somewhat like overkill so yesterday I only ate half :)

It's been a good week weight wise. No giant water retention gains and not really a lot of cravings either. I did eat some forbidden things. I've been watching a lot of TV shows about weight loss and reading tons of weight loss blogs over the past year and it is true what most say that, even though you've lost so much, you always see yourself as the fat person. Not that I was morbidly obese or anything, but I was large and very uncomfortable with my body image 49 pounds ago. (That's right.. 49!!) I've struggled to get over that but it still lingers and tries to bring me down. Well, yesterday I had a bra disaster and had to go buy some new ones. I went to a store I've never been to before and in the dressing room they had mirrors on every wall, not just one. I saw myself from every angle and finally saw what other people have been saying (and what I DO know from the scale each morning) that I am in fact kind of skinny now. That was a huge boost to the self esteem. Oh and I did find bras that actually fit. It's a miracle.

Here's this week in weight:

October 19      136.8 lbs Celebration meal. Cheeseburger, fries, icecream sandwich and some chips.
October 20      138.0 lbs
October 21      137.6 lbs Wholewheat pasta meal. Ate it with a stirfry this time instead of meat patties.
October 22      137.2 lbs
October 23      137.0 lbs
October 24      137.0 lbs Protein Thursday
October 25      136.0 lbs Lowest weight yet. Wooo!!!!

Brunch and cake

Here's my weekly food recap and confessional:

There was brunch and cake on Sunday, my littlest one turned 5. Used my celebration meal for that. I ate a delicious breakfast plate with eggs, bacon, home fries, pancakes and toast. Home made cake for dessert. I may also have gone a little off course over the following couple of days.. leftover cake is a dangerous but oh so delicious thing.

Weight recap:

October 12     137.6 lbs
October 13     138.6 lbs Brunch/Cake celebration meal
October 14     139.0 lbs
October 15     138.6 lbs Whole wheat pasta meal
October 16     138.6 lbs (I ate cake  /shame)
October 17     139.4 lbs (protein Thursday)
October 18     137.2 lbs


I was watching a program on the TV the other day about the dangers of sugar. I knew a lot of things have added sugar but I had no idea it was THAT bad. This definitely reinforces my need for making things from scratch. I already do make all my own bread and cook most of the food from scratch with fresh ingredients but there are definitely areas where I can improve on that too. I'd like to keep my kids away from sugar addiction as I know how bad it can get.

Weekly recap

I haven't felt motivated to write any meaningful blog posts lately. This will be just a weekly recap of food and weight and such.

October 5       138.2 lbs  Celebration meal: Meatballs, home made wedge potatoes. Ice cream sandwich.
October 6       138.2 lbs
October 7       137.8 lbs  Whole wheat pasta meal
October 8       138.0 lbs
October 9       136.6 lbs  (no idea what happened to cause that weight drop). Forgot to eat fruit this day.
October 10     138.0 lbs  Protein Thursday
October 11     137.0 lbs

As you can see my weight is still holding steady. Consolidation is definitely working so far. One more month and I'll be in part two of the consolidation and I'm hoping it will work as well as this first part.

Have a birthday party coming up this weekend. Brunch and cake planned for Sunday. Nom nom!

Week... I lost count.

The chocolate is finally out of the picture. All in all it didn't cause too much damage weight wise. I gained 1-2 pounds total and they've come off again now that I'm not stuffing my face any more. I'm feeling a little bit ashamed at my lack of discipline but it's over and done with now and not worth dwelling on.

This week in food has been very lacklustre. I've been unmotivated to cook anything major and thus I've been eating mostly eggs, cold sliced meat and canned tuna and of course veggies. Had a couple of days where I ate my standard turkey patties as well.

Next week I think I'll make some salad. It's been a while since I had salad, not sure why it just sort of slipped off the menu.

Here's the weight recap for the week:

September 28:     forgot to write it down. Celebration meal of cheeseburger, fries and ice cream dessert.
September 29:     140.2 lbs  (Time of the month started, responsible for the jump in weight)
September 30:     139.4 lbs
October 1:           139.0 lbs Whole wheat pasta meal.
October 2:           138.6 lbs
October 3:           139.0 lbs Protein Thursday
October 4:           137.4 lbs